Psychedelic culture has given us a powerful image of transformation: the self dissolves, the familiar world disappears, and somehow we return, from the other side, changed.
It is the territory associated with the large psychedelic experience, the mystical encounter, the loss of ordinary boundaries, the temporary collapse of the distinction between me and everything else.
Terence McKenna pushed this approach to its most memorable extreme with his advocacy of the “heroic dose”: five dried grams of psilocybin mushrooms taken in silent darkness. For McKenna, the point was not to lightly modify ordinary consciousness. It was to go far enough that ordinary consciousness could no longer remain in charge.
And sometimes, within sufficiently powerful psychedelic states, something resembling ego dissolution does occur. Research with larger doses of classic psychedelics has repeatedly documented profound alterations in self-processing and self-world boundaries, alongside changes in brain networks associated with self-referential thought.
This is one of the extraordinary possibilities of the psychedelic experience. But it may not be the only model of transformation available to us.
What if the ego does not always need to disappear?
What if, sometimes, it simply needs to become a little less convincing?
From ego death to ego looseness
One phenomenological hypothesis, that is growing in interest, is the idea that microdosing can sometimes elicit a “micro ego death”, particular over a set of 2-3 protocols, over an extended period.
Naturally, there is no comparison between the intensity of a microdose and the intensity of a psychedelic macro journey. However, perhaps the gap is narrower in relation to how each can alter our relationship with the story we call me.
In a large psychedelic experience, the usual self-model may become radically destabilised.
In microdosing, something much quieter may sometimes become possible:
I don’t have to react that way.
Perhaps that belief isn’t quite as true as I thought.
Interesting. I normally dislike this.
Why do I always assume that?
Maybe I am not quite the person I keep telling myself I am.
That is not ego death.
It is micro-disidentification.
And for personal development, that distinction could be enormously important.
When “I am” becomes “I have been”
Most of us walk around with an astonishing number of apparently factual statements about ourselves.
I am anxious.
I am bad with people.
I can’t do that.
I always choose the wrong partner.
I’m not creative.
I hate confrontation.
This is simply how I am.
Over time, descriptions become identities.
And identities become predictions.
We stop encountering the present moment freshly because the existing self is continually telling us what the present moment means.
One influential contemporary theory of psychedelic action is the REBUS model proposed by Robin Carhart-Harris and Karl Friston, which suggests that psychedelics may temporarily reduce the dominance or “precision” of deeply established high-level beliefs, allowing incoming information to have greater influence.
Most of this theoretical work concerns psychedelic doses substantially larger than microdoses. We cannot simply shrink the mechanism proportionately and assume the same thing is happening.
But as a model for thinking, it gives us a beautiful possibility.
A transformative psychedelic moment does not necessarily have to tell you:
Everything you believed about yourself was wrong.
Perhaps it only needs to introduce:
Are you sure?
That tiny question can create considerable space.
“I am this person” becomes:
“I have been this person.”
And suddenly the future has somewhere to go.
Fadiman’s forgotten clue
There is an intriguing precedent for thinking about psychedelics in precisely this practical way.
In 1966, Willis Harman, Robert McKim, Robert Mogar, James Fadiman and Myron Stolaroff published Psychedelic Agents in Creative Problem-Solving: A Pilot Study.
Twenty-seven professionally employed men, including people working in engineering, physics, mathematics, architecture and design, participated in carefully prepared psychedelic sessions. They were not simply asked to take a psychedelic and see what happened. They brought real professional problems requiring creative solutions, including problems on which some had already been working unsuccessfully for weeks or months.
The researchers deliberately constructed the session around creative problem solving, paying close attention to preparation, expectation and environment. Their preliminary findings suggested improvements in certain aspects of creative problem solving.
What matters here is almost more interesting than the result.
It is the orientation.
These people were not necessarily trying to abandon their ordinary lives.
They were bringing ordinary life into the psychedelic space.
Here is my engineering problem. Here is the design I cannot finish. Here is the place where my thinking has become stuck.
Now let us look again.
This was not microdosing. The psychedelic effects were considerably stronger. But philosophically, Fadiman and his colleagues were exploring something surprisingly close to the modern microdosing mindset:
Psychedelic experience as applied inquiry.
The question was not simply:
What will the psychedelic show me?
It was:
What happens if I deliberately look at this again from a mind that is temporarily less constrained by its usual way of looking?
The smallest psychedelic revolution
Perhaps, then, the transformative potential of microdosing is not that it repeatedly gives us miniature psychedelic revelations.
Perhaps its most interesting possibility is that it creates an invitation to practise being less certain of ourselves.
Not lost. Not dissolved. Not reborn every Wednesday.
Just slightly less fixed.
The old self says:
This is what happens.
The curious self says:
What actually happened?
The old self says:
This is who I am.
The curious self asks:
According to whom?
And the old self says:
I know.
While the emerging self says:
Maybe.
That maybe is tiny.
But psychologically, it is enormous.
Because transformation rarely requires us to manufacture an entirely new person.
Often it begins when we stop defending the existing one quite so fiercely.
The heroic psychedelic journey can sometimes blow the doors off the house.
Microdosing may offer another possibility:
to remain inside the house, walk slowly from room to room, open a window that has been stuck for years and notice that the view was never quite what we thought it was.
Not ego death.
Ego-revision, in lowercase..
A workable altered sense of self.
And perhaps, for the citizen scientist willing to observe carefully rather than merely believe enthusiastically, an unusually accessible place from which to ask one of the most transformative questions available to us:
Who might I become if I stop assuming that who I have been, is who I have to remain?
Where are you now on your own journey?
Are you ready to help others?
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